Leaving soon to go meet someone to take me to the Beltane picnic/ritual.
While having someone pick me up is probably more nerve-wracking than driving myself, it does mean that I can’t back-out since they are making the effort to drive me. I do need to head out soon so I can get some money to pay them for the gas expense, though.
I’m meeting them outside of Starbucks, so I can also get a coffee before hand. Which is good!
Tyler is coming tonight. While last time he visited made me feel like the biggest socially awkward friend imaginable, he and William have pleeeenty to talk about—with both them being huge nerds, that is.
Not to mention I have a N64 now and Smash Bros. IT IS ON.
Yeah, I think today will be a good day. I feel physically anxious and panicky, but I feel mentally secure and strong. I am going to try to focus on how I am mentally feeling rather than emotionally.
ALSO! I need to thank Ally and mysterious texter for texting me last night! I was very anxious leaving the apartment for several reasons, but the outing was fun/fine. Even though I ended the night by talking about how I use to roleplay men on xanga with my manager in the car… and how I didn’t know how penises worked at age 13 >.>;
ANYWAY. Off to the grocery store for change and then Starbucks!