I’m making this update literally after my first two classes. My laptop and desktop are still not functional. (We need to find money for a new graphics card for my desktop, and William needs to see if he can fix my laptop’s power cord.) I still also need to update about our vacation to Minneapolis.
But! First! Classes! :D
I woke up with a terrible sinus headache. Actually, more accurately, I had a terrible sinus headache since last night and it hadn’t gone away by the time I woke up. So that really gave a bad start to everything. Nonetheless, first day of classes, so I toughed up and went. We got to the school with a good ten minutes to spare. William was a bit nervous (he has anxieties about institutionalized school that could easily be diagnosed as PTSD.) I had some trouble finding my Intro to Technology class, but eventually I found it.
It is a simple class, to say the least. We’re doing assignments in this school “blackboard” program called Angel, so I doodled a picture of it to occupy my mind:
Yeah… that didn’t occupy the entire hour of class.
But it went by alright. I did the first assignment which was writing an introduction in the discussion boards as a way to introduce discussion boards. I browsed at one of the classmate’s introduction, and they are a psychology major with a focus in LGBTAQ+ studies. As soon as I’m done typing this up, I think I’ll send a private email to them (or comment on the post?) as a way to see about making friends. He should be interesting to talk to!
I then met up with William. He had Speech. There is a kid who is very hyperactive and commented on how wrinkly his shirt was. Which, probably didn’t mean to be harsh, but it still made William feel uneasy. Then he recognized an old co-worker in the gallery. Still, he held together and didn’t have a panic attack. So I’m proud :)
We then went to get coffee at a local coffee shop since the place here was out of any yummy coffee. We sat there until my headache returned with new vengeance and drove off to the local drug store for medicine. We then were running late getting back to the school, so I dropped William off in front (so he wouldn’t be late…I could handle walking in mid-lecture better than he can, and his day already wasn’t going that well, so I didn’t want lateness to trigger anything.)
I found my class and rushed in. The teacher wasn’t there so I grabbed the handouts. Then, she came in as I sat down.
Sociology is going to be amazing…I hope.
I’m a bit worried because there is one student who seems to have the need to add something to everything—regardless if it is beneficial to the discussion. I’m also worried because he seems to want to make jokes, which involve wanting to “punch” people in the face (granted, this was after he learned about the recent news event with the kid who got away with manslaughter by claiming he was a victim of classism.) He also wasn’t aware what ableism is…so I’m a bit concerned.
However, the teacher had an important point in the syllabus and verbally about how the classroom will be a safe place. I am mostly worried about ableism, especially in regards to mental health and anything about suicide. I fluctuate at how triggered I am with those types of discussions. Which…makes me wonder if I should email my teacher to ensure that I can leave the classroom if the conversation were to tread on those topics disrespectfully. This is luckily my last class of the day and I see William right afterwards, but…I really rather not be triggered to the point that I felt unsafe. And if someone were to make ableism jokes or judgements about those things, I’d be severely triggered.
Other things that were mentioned that would not be tolerated are mild triggers for me are sexism, religious discrimination, and heterosexism. I would probably handle myself well with those types of discrimination, though not happily. Then of course I’d be unhappy but not necessarily triggered by racism. I definitely look forward to the class, though. We can bring in laptops, so I will have access to all my bookmarked resources. However, most are anecdotal…which “research trumps anecdotal.” I appreciate that, but I wonder I can swing my anecdotal evidence as personal experience of people? A sort of primary evidence? Hmmm…We also got an article about how cell-phone use leads to anxiety, which is bullshit in my mind. I’ll rebuttal that article in a different blog post.All in all? I’m excited. I feel very confident and comfortable, or as comfortable as one would expect. I do think I’ll mention to William about emailing my Sociology teacher about my triggers to see what he thinks. He already took this class with the same teacher, so he could give me some perspective if he thinks it’d be necessary. Hopefully I’ll have a computer working tonight so I can return to tumblr and other social media. I have enjoyed this vacation and all, but I’m ready to be back!Oh, I’m also looking for jobs! Not only do I feel comfortable attending classes, but I think I could handle a part-time job on top of it. And if the job gets too much I’ll just have to quit. But for now, I feel like I can handle it.Sincerely,
My laptop isn’t reading my AC cord, so if/when it runs out of battery power, it’ll be dead. My desktop still isn’t able to boot up despite my boyfriend reinstalling Windows (though the Installation isn’t working, so that might be why…)
We’re going on vacation in a few days and prolly won’t be able to fix either issue until afterwards.
I could use the family computer, or even boot William off his a few hours a day, but I think I’ll just implement a “Computer-Free” vacation for a week. I will check messages and all that, but I have stuff offline I should be doing. Things like reading or crafting.
I’ll have my phone, so if you need me you can text me. (Message me on tumblr if you don’t have it.)
Here are some wintry animals reminding you to have a nice day and please take care of yourself because you are lovely!
We’re big fans of self-care.
I will reblog this every time it pops up on my dash!
This legitimately just reminded me that I need to take my medication thank you kind animals
Just finished reading a story about how she doesn’t feel like an adult and responsibilities and laziness and internet and….yes.
Your book speaks to me on an emotional, personal level.
Meet Nick Vujicic, he was born with no arms and no legs and is, and will continue to be an absolute inspiration to me. seriously, if you are ever feeling down, listen to some of his talks… I guarantee you, you will feel better about yourself :D (updated to include picture of him with his wife and son)